I didn't choose to be a grandmother, nor was I prepared for how great the feeling is. My grandson recently has been running to see me when he greets me. That is a feeling that I don't think there is a word to describe it except for maybe amazing! To have someone so precious look at you and be excited to see you, it's beyond amazing. Everything else in my life seems to halt when my grandson says my name, or laughs at something silly I am doing or greets me and waves and says "hi."
Now I have a grandaughter. I wonder, how can I be the best grandmother I can be to her? Will she like me? What am I going to do with a grandaughter? She is so amazing!
I look at this picture and when I took it, I am reminded of my own grandmother, Mom Mom. I honestly think she resembles her in this picture. My grandmother would sleep in her chair just like this and my brother and I would laugh at her peacefulness. I look at her and am reminded of how great my own grandmother was, and hope that I can be the grandmother she was to them, and have them remember me the same way I remember her. I could tell her anything and she never judged me, and always listened to me. She always gave me the best advice and always cared about every problem, issue or feeling I had. She always had a way of making everyone feel welcomed in her home even if she couldn't stand them. You would never know. That was who she was.
I also want to be the grandmother my mother was to my kids. She transformed when they were born and it was a part of my mother I had never seen until they were born and it was amazing to watch. They were the most important thing to her and she did her best to make sure they knew that. I just hope they remember. Even when she learned that her time was near, the only thing she was concerned about was my kids and not being able to see them graduate. She would do a lot that at that time would drive me crazy. She followed her own rules, not mine but I know now that is who she was, and it gave my children an escape to another world, it was grandma's world. She took care of us on her own our whole lives and did a lot for us and gave up a lot of things for herself, if she wanted to create her own world for her grandchildren, who was I to stop her, it was her time!
In coming up with what my own grandchildren would call me, I decided on Maw Maw. My grandmother was Mom Mom and my mother was grandma so I combined the two into Maw Maw.
I have been blessed now with two grandchildren and just like my mother and my grandmother, I will try to do everything in my power to be a part of their lives and get to know them and hope that one day, they will remember me, the same way I remember mine. I would rather be an annoyance than to not know who these wonderful blessings are.
I am the busiest that I have ever been in my entire life at this moment. I have a wonderful new job, a house we are restoring ourselves, a upcoming move after 20+ years in our original home, and I have five active cats and two dogs that I love dearly and need me. I also have two beautiful grandchildren that will grow more dear and more precious and learn so much every single day. I don't want to miss anthing! Regardless of what is going on in my own life, I want to be, and am going to try my best, to be the best grandmother that I can be, and am grateful that I had the best examples growing up!
Nothing is more important to me than being there to accomplish this. That is my goal!